Anonymous asked: My tumblr is were I get out all my feelings. Happy, sad, or anger. I post everything i feel and it makes me feel better.
Yep well I tried to explain that to my mum but no, apparently it’s making me worse :/
Yep. I’m not depressed, I’m not suicidal, I haven’t tried to kill myself, I’m pathetic, I’m going to turn out like Henry, I just can’t be asked to go to school, the reason I shrug my shoulders is because I have nothing to say, I’m ripping this family apart.
I FUCKING HATE YOU. I WISH YOU NEVER EVEN CAME IN TO THIS FAMILY YOU TOTAL DICK. I HOPE YOU KEEL OVER AND DIE.
God dammit. I really miss posting on this blog. They convinced me it would make me feel better if I wasn’t posting my feelings on here and talked to people instead. But now, I just get upset and angry and think, boy I would feel better if I were on Tumblr, and cut more. You know, I don’t care if they find out I’ve been on here. It makes me feel better so fuck them.
:’( every thing is falling apart
I miss this blog so much :’( I miss you all too. I’ll try and get on here as much as I can…
I wish I was back at A&E. They were so nice to me and I actually felt a little better. Now I’m back home I feel worse than ever. :’(
Anonymous asked: i read your my story page and i was wondering, when and by who where you sexually assaulted?
May of 2012, I don’t want to say who by.
Anonymous asked: Hi I love you
I love you too:3
I’m at my granddad’s all day today which means I can get on here.. yay :’) xxx how are we all? :3 xxx
Ok. Im not going to be on this tumblr for a while now but you can get to me on my other blog- smallcountrygirlbigcitydreams.tumblr.com however im only allowed to post positive happy things on there so useless you ask me off anon, I cant talk to you about anything if its not positive because the deal was that I could keep it if my mum was allowed to have the link and check it regularly. But anyway, I love you all, stay strong beautiful people xxxxxxxxx
Im not going to be on here for a while now. Im not allowed. Apparently it’s not “helping” me. Even though I find it the most helpful thing ever, my feelings don’t seem to come into this. I dont know if I’ll ever be on here again because I really don’t think I can take this anymore. Im really sorry. Hopefully I’ll be back soon and I might be able to find a way around my mum and her fucking stupid plans. Love you all stay strong you beautiful people xxxxxxxxx
Aw so I went to A&E today and sat there for 7 hours because I was on the serious verge of killing myself, I’ve never regretted something more. The people there were absolutely lovely, really nice to.me. Then a social worker came to talk to me and he was literally the nicest person I’ve ever met :’) then they called urgent help. Fuck. So, what was decided is that I have no choice in anything for the foreseable future, I probably won’t be allowed on Tumblr for a long time, mum has to check my bag and coat and everything. Ok. I can understand a lot of that, though of course im still gonna be on here no matter what they say. But what had pissed me off the most , is that I told urgent help I was going to end up trying again about a month ago just before they left. I told them this would happen and they still left. Now they expect me to actually think they give a fuck about me. Ha. Ha. Ha. Dream on. And this is all apparently going to help make me more safe and less likely to feel suicidal. Aha. Ha. Ha. Ha.
Anonymous asked: I want to
Anonymous asked: don't go please please please I'll stay up all night to talk you out of it if I have to
You don’t need to do that x